Christmas

Christmas, the hellish time that occurs once a year. Sure, the food is great but this year the company, six kids and two dogs was just too much. For those that do not know it: I'm hyper allergic to dogs. Actually to all animals with fur. So. I had to eat this antihistamin drug that 1) made me really sleepy 2) didn't really help since you're supposed to take it and GET THE FUCK AWAY from what is causing your allergic reaction. Since this wasn't possible I ended spending much of my time in the bedroom I was sleeping in which was declared safe zone for me so no dogs allowed.

So suffering from asthma and having my body battle the allergens flying around in the air I caught a cold also as a bonus, so now I've been using more or a less a years supply of tissues to wipe my nose while at the same time coughing my lungs out which means that I will spend the New Year in bed. Oh well, isn't the first time I do that.

Other than that, it was OK. Got to relax and see the relatives and spend some time with the children and talk to them and see some of the magic that nature has to offer.

Ystävälle

Kun katselen sinua
tunnen piston sydämessäni
piston jonka olen tuntenut
kauan kauan sitten

Näytit niin pieneltä
kun seisoit edessäni
olit hukassa, olit poissa
otin sinut syliini

Pidin sinua sylissäni
halusin antaa
sen mitä halusit
mutta se ei ollut annettavissa

Tiedän tuskasi, tunnen sen
olen itse tuntenut sen
rakkaus joka repii rintaa
kunnes tulet hulluksi

En voi kuin lohduttaa
ja olla lähelläsi
pidellä vaikeina aikoina
nauraa iloisina

Olet hyvin rakas minulle
ystäväni

Almost there

Went to Turku yesterday, returned today. Seems alot happened while I was away. An escaped Estonian convict was arrested in the general area and a bar less than 100m from my house flamed. Lucky for them the firestation is so close.

Anyway.

I went to Turku. Held my presentation today for the class about the course project that I slapped together in a day. Sound was crappy but that can be improved. Also I'll add the rest of the slides to the presentation and ship it off to Sweden for a sanity check.

Anyway.

There was a lot of good material published during the presentations, even stuff that with some effort and time would do as a virtual course. Hopefully they realise the potential.

Now I'm just tired. Need to finish another paper tomorrow and send it away away away. I wish I could get some info on the raise that my boss said he would propose me for. Should come this month and they days are getting fewer and fewer...

My dear friend

I saw your message and I responded to it. It made me sad as you were really hurt. I know how much you wanted it and I know exactly how you feel because I have been in the same position as you are now. I know the feeling of disappointment from having waited so long and not getting the final few yards to the goal which would have made your day if not your life for just one second in the arms of the other. I know I would like to help you but this is something that you will have to experience at least once and learn from it. I'm afraid to say so, but this is who we are and what we sometimes do. It shouldn't be like that but it is and sometimes that makes me a little bit unhappy. I'm so sorry my friend. I will be there for you should you need me.