Post cruise and the company christmas party

Survived the cruise. I was tired, almost fell asleep on Thursday at the office after we arrived there directly from the harbor. But lets take a trip back in time to Tuesday. We went to the boat around 10 (didn't leave until 17) where we had a conferance room reserved where we discussed issued we had open. A quick (but very good) lunch later we continued until five when we had an hour to spare. Some hit the shops, others the cabins. Turned out I shared cabin with my boss and the french guy. At 18 we hit the restaurant where we had a four course meal including three different red wines (one which I bought to P), champagne and calvados. After the meal we hit the pub on the ship where we stayed for some time. Hit bed around midnight having first watched the grande finale of the Wahlmans show (which was crappy - cute singer though). Woke up at around 8 and went to have breakfast. Amazingly everyone showed up for breakfast.

After the breakfast there was an hour before we docked. We bought tickets for the bus to Centralen where I had agreed to meet P. The first bus turned out to be full so we had to wait for the second. As we were driving in towards the center we somehow managed by some dum luck pass all the places that people wanted to visit. After we got out of the bus it took about a few minutes before P arrived. I gave him a courteous hug (although I would have wanted to give him so much more) and introduced the team. We walked towards the places people wanted to visit and after a while we had lost everyone and went to sit at a café. We had some coffee and caught up on what had happened in our lives since we last had seen (which was over a year ago since our August meetings no longer will take place I guess). Time is flying when you're having fun and soon we had to leave for the meeting with the others at Sture plan and we arrived a little bit early. Soon enough everyone was there. We departed P and hit the subway and managed to take the wrong train. We ended up changing subway at Tekniska Lekskolan and switched again at Östermalm to a train which took us to Gärdet. From there it was a short walk to the terminal and the boat where we continued our meeting until 18 when we had a glass of champagne. After that we hit the cabins and immediatly went to the buffet which turned out to be quite filling (actually too filling).

After the buffet everyone was more or less too tired to do anything. I went to sleep at around 10 while the others continued until midnight. Woke up in the morning around four or five, coughing like crazy. Went to the toilet so that I wouldn't disturb the others and threw up at the same time. Burning sensation in stomach the the contents in the bowl were red so I guess that means an ulcer or something in the line with that.

The morning was a repetition of the other ones. Breakfast and then we packed the bags and left the ship after the boat had docked. The taxi was waiting and soon enough we were on the way back to work. The day was quite slow and so I left at 15 back home with my stuff. Took a shower once I got home a read the newspaper. After that I hit Itäkeskus and Eurokangas to pick up my drapes which were ready.

Got them up pretty quick although the all so kind soul of josu said he would come and help me. Thank you for that.

The next day was the company christmas party in the evening so I stayed at work until 18 when I left with my coworker and some other towards the place where we were supposed to be. Arrived a bit late because turned out Putin was leaving at the same time so all the roads were closed and the traffic was jammed. Thank you for that :)

The food was excellent, the people were nice (and quite drunk - and some where .. quite gorgeous). Talked to Mikko (for the first time) and turnes out he if from Oulu so no wonder he is a nice person. He might return there though to continue with his master level studies once he graduates from his present school ,which is not so nice. I hanged around talking and mingling with people until one in the night when I walked into the center and took the tram home. Fell asleep at two after having talked briefly to josu which also left for bed. Goodnight little one.

In the navy

Cruise tomorrow with team. Lets see who gets thrown overboard with concrete shoes. I get to see P on wednesday :)

Torture

This hellish feeling is torturing me when I know that you are next to me and I know I cannot show my true feelings that I have toward you. I want to hold you in my arms, caress your skin and keep you safe and sound. I think you know how I feel which makes it even more harder. We are not for each other, I know that, but still you are like .. I don't know what.

All work and no play

Watched today a discussion on a channel about work and how much work people do. Some complained that they do too much work and that they should really learn to say "Screw this, I'm going home" or get a family in which case it is easier to leave because .. well you know .. you have to go.

Apparently I'm somehow damaged. I looked at the conversation thinking "But the job has to be done?". Why leave if you can make or fix it? There is really no other option unless you want to leave the work for the day and continue tomorrow. Maybe it is just the lutheran upbringing.

The discussion continued to unions and their usefullness. I don't belong to any union, as far as I recall, but still I'm represented by one guy at work. Now how funny is that? What are the unions useful for in todays world? Are they useful at all? Or do they just cause trouble? I know that if I would need to go on strike for one reason or the other I would be working from home. Sure, day off would be nice .. but I'm not always so sure about the cause. Maybe I'm just lazy.

The first kiss

I still remember the first kiss you gave me. We had just been on the dance floor and I was standing next to you near the bar looking at the dancing people, holding a glass of water in my hand. I turned to look at you and you smiled and suddenly you bent down and gave me a kiss. You straightened yourself and smiled at me. After that we went to sit down near the entrance where I held you in my arms stroking your short hair.

I remember looking at you as you were sitting drunk in the kitchen that I was trying to clean up. You looked at me and suddenly you said "I love you". I held you in my arms and I felt so sorry for you because I already knew the answer to what you so much wanted. Would it have been in my power I would have granted you that one wish, but it was not. That night your heart broke as did mine as I looked at your suffering. I so wanted to hold on to you, comfort you, help you.

You visited me once and we were talking about music and you said something about a Swedish artist that has a song about pain and hurt and you said that sometimes life is just like that. Ibland gör det bara ont. I know, I feel like that when I look at you and I am unable to take care of you. I know, you are all grown up now but still now and then you look like that little lost person I held in my arms.

Say what?

Saw Jadesoturi today. I don't really know how to describe it without sounding too critical. A normal finnish movie I would say with some wannabe chinese action scenes in between that made absolutly no sense. The only interesting effect was the cutting of a falling leaf in two. Otherwise I was just sitting and waiting for the story to end. Too mystic for me or then I was just too tired to try and follow the story.


Nothing more today other than that FC6 seems to suck from a MP3 point of view. Amarok has also been castrated and if you want to update it you have remove livna packages, update amarok and re-install the livna packages again. Oh well.